Saturday, April 24, 2010

one thing settle, more to come ;) IB

This is IB Programme. Dah memang tak boleh lari daripada benda-benda yang membukit. Or mungkin sebab tuh Kolej Mara Banting terletak dekat Bukit Changgang. Ada maksuk disebaliknya. But its okay, seems everyone have a constant time taken, and still there are people can handle this thing, why not me ?. Tiga minggu yang sesak dah pun berlalu. And aku tak give up walaupun pernah. Kawan help me alot. Dengan kawan jugaklah aku bertengkar, tak sangka. Dulu dia banyak tolong, sekarang aku lawan. Tapi ini masalah emosi, tak dapat nak kawal.

Finally, semua programme pasal MPAC or MC dah settle. And aku sangat bersyukur dapat menimba banyak pengalaman as a leader and working with a perfect girl on stage. I will never regret on what i'd join. Even though i'm taking a more challenging path, i think thats is what i wanted. And Alhamdulillah, I manage to do my chemistry and economics test, even though no time to study.

Lady D, thanks for ur comment ;)


Friday, April 16, 2010

Something different

MPAC - Malaysian Performing Arts Club. This thing had driven me crazy. I know its all because of my weaknesses : not a good director, cannot decide something, cannot speak out! But, it really made me lost confidence at all.

Yesterday, and the day before we did a rehearsal on Teacher's Day Sketch. On the first time we presented it to the advisor 1, she was like saying we need to improve more on body language and facial expression. And this was just okay for me, because I do agreed with what she had said. But, the day after it was totally different. She criticized a lot, and its really not the same as what she had said before. At that moment, I had nothing to said, I'm stucked, my tongue was freeze. Thanks to some of the members, who really help a lot, by saying something. But then, there're few, or maybe one person only, who did said that he/she didn't even understand what the storyline and the message was all about. And that time, I'm totally frustrated. He/she didn't even came for practice but still brave enough to said something like that. But, I can only hear what the comments from the members. In some extent, it does help us, but then it put me in a difficulties zone.

And just know, another advisors came to see our progression after a few discussion to imrpoved our sketch. At first we're figure out new things and I think we did get into the conclusion. But then, we were intended to show what we had done before after 10 time practising. And the results was so different. This time, the advisor was so different. She said our performance was just so nice because its funny. And it made me up-down again as now I got two differents point of view from our adivsors. Till one time, I gave up. But there're few really nice to me. They tried to motivated me. And I really happy with that eventhouh still not into thee confidence level yet. But hopefully, what were planned will be just so great enough for the teachers and the students.

That what makes it so different. a new life for me ;)

Saturday, April 10, 2010

its pain ;(

i never thought it will turn out like this. (speaking sikit). mula2 ingat nak suruh doktor main tampl-tampal je, tapi dia buat gigi aku lg berlobang. and at one point tuh, sakit gila. bukan aku kena penyakit gila, tapi sakit. tp fine lah, aku ckp kt doktor, sakit. die pun suruh rilek. then die pon mainlah tampal2. lepas dah siap, amek ubat. die kasi ubat tahan sakit (paracetamol). then bayar rm50-mahal gila, dh lme tak pergi klinik gigi. tp aku dok fikir, apsal lak die kasik ubat tahan sakit, coz tak sakit dah... tp ble keluar je dari klinik tuh, sakit tiba2 datang! pergh, tak tahan doh. rasa macam baiki gigi tapi jadi lagi teruk. sampai sekarang still rasa sakit. sabar je la.

btw, nak cerita skit, eventhough dah 10 tahun lebih tak pergi klinik tuh, dr veejay still kenal aku ;) sweet kan ? haha. memanglah pelanggan setia.

Friday, April 09, 2010

after ip farewell party.

i'm happy today! having fun with the i.p. no more conflict with myself (hopefully). yes, i did a work just now, thats only after i ask if they need a help. and yeah, if im not there tht time, i dont think the pinky stylo letter. i'll upload it later keyh. but then, i can't make the party till the end, my dad came early to take me home. hoho. my family missed me a lot (padahal aku yg nak balik ;)

seminggu bercuti ;)

salam. dah hampir seminggu tak menulis. bukan sebab sibuk, tapi ada masalah hidung. tak fahamlah tuh (*ditujukan khas kpd cik arina ;) main-main okay! minggu nih actualy terkena sumpahan resdung, mata berair, hidung gatal, diri sendiri memang dah dari dulu gatal-gatal. entah macam mana, tetiba je nak rajin-cuci kipas, lepastuh esoknya terkena sumpahan kipas. so thats why jadi resudng untuk seminggu lamanya. kalaulah resdung seminggu same macam datang bulan, tak payah aku sembahyang. haha. tapi nih maknanya aku kena mintak bantuan Illahi.

Hidup nih penuh dugaan, dengan resdungnya, dan terus affect kerja-kerja lain. tutorial math tak siap2. and kerja makinlah bertambah. minggu nih rasa nak balik (but now mmg akan balik) nak pergi cari ubat resdung, and nak tampal gigi. asyik2, lepas makan ada sumthing dekat celah gigi. lepastuh apelagi, buat kerja tak senonoh la aku, korek gigi guna pen! haha. harap2 classmate tak perasan. tapi korang jangan risau, minggu depan aku tak buat dah. actually dah lama gila tak kena penyakit gigi nih, about 12 tahun dah. tiba2 datang pulak, sabar je lah.

then dis week pon busy jugak dengan MPAC (Malaysia Performing Arts Club). nama kelab tak boleh blah. jangan ingat aku menari ek, yang lembut2, ish3. kelab nih untuk drama je. dis tyme aku jadi "MACAM" director. b4 dis dah dua performance aku berlakon, bosan pulak dok atas pentas. btw, practise kali nih untuk hari guru. soon. so memang aku agak cuak, as a director, kononye. aku tak banyak bagi idea, tp bila nak terima idea tuh susah sgt. ahli2 group pn skejap ad, skejap takde, tp makin lme diorg makin mengerti.. *ayat endon plak. so sejeak dua tiga hari nih, ramai jugak la yg dtg.

another thing is, i was choosen to be in Fish4Life. hoho, aku dah jadi ikan, mksudnya, bertambah2la kerja lepas nih. n i was placed in documentation part which i need to do more wrinting thinggy! o.m.g ini sgt susah memandangkn english aku sucks. tp takpe, Allah dah tetapkan, maybe lepas nih i can improve u noe! haha. n member2 aku ad gak yg pelik, asal aku membusykn diri lg. n aku sendiri tak thu nk jawab ap.

about ip. aku tak sure, tp aku dah jauh dr ip. hati aku bukan pd ip lg. mungkin sebab konflik dulu kala, (konflik dlm diri) someone pls bring me back to ip! tonite ad ip farewell party, aku tak sure ap perasaan ak, skrg rse mcm sgt hipokrit. aku rasa sgt teruk, tk berguna. tp tk thu kenapa. mungkin after wht the president said. sorry kalau ad ip yg mmbce. dlu pernah aku bgtau presidn, n then after a few few few week, die pon ckp la pasal problems nih, n aku rasa aku terkena blk, n aku rasa bodo sbab ak luahkan ttg konflik yg ak alami dlu. n noe, aku seriously tk byk buat kerja, n aku pun malas nk tnye or sponsor diri. sbab if aku malas, ad sorg je lg yg plg malas. bukan malas lah, but tak byk sponsor diri jugak. tp takpe, aku rasa benda nih dah nk berakhir, now i just wanted to concentrate to noe them more and more. so that boleh pulih hubungan ktorg. hopefully! :)


Saturday, April 03, 2010

selesai interview ;)

aku baru je lepas interview, orang seken last. punya la cuak kebebe, oraang sebelah aku tgh prepare 4 interview, lepas nih dia. aku dah lepas, nak cakap suka, ada jugak, tapi macam memalukan diri sendiri. pergh, aku segan!

masuk2, greet. duduk depan interviewer. berdiri. lama tunggu. baru dia tanya. tempat tinggal & tempat study ? senang je soalan. then dia tanya pasal IB. aku pon jawab je ah. lepas tuh mula, masuk topik aku, Energy.

aku dengan gelabahnya tak tahu nak start mana, main start je dengan Heat, joules, enthalpy change, dan blablabla3. lepas tuh stop. tak tahu nak cakap apa, interviewer pon pandang je, bisu. aku tengok, reaksi diorg mse aku tengah present pon macam bosan. aku waktu tuh gelabah. dia relax and bosan. then die suruh aku tukar tajuk, tak nak thermochemistry, dia nak energy dalam physic. dia tanya apa lagi energy yang ada, aku cuma dapat jawab dua. potential, physical. yang lain dah blur, lupa, tak ingat. lepas tuh dia suruh kaitkan pulak dengan physics, f5. newton law lah, blablabla3. pergh, aku tak tahu pape, x)

then macam biasa, aku buat bodoh, senyap! (buat bodo or mmg bodo ?) then dia suruh relate dengan medicine, lagi aku tak tahu. akhirnya aku tewas, tp aku sempat argue pasal exothermic n endothermic, dia cakap kalau heat of neutralisation, kaw takkan rasa pon dgn tangan kepanasan/kesejukan dia. tapi aku cakap ada rasa, sebab setiap experiment heat of neutralisation aku dapat rasa. then argue2 so alast aku mengalah. aku amek nasihat dia. sebab dia kata bahaya kalau guna tangan. so then, aku tanya, dalam lab report tak boleh ah taruk data collection(qualitative) pasal solution become warmer, n dia kata tak boleh. so tuhla pengajaran dia.

basically, memang interview hari nih paling mencuakkan alam semesta. sebabnya... kitorang diberikan topic n figure out only bout a few minute. so macam cuak gila. baca last2 minute pon bukan faham sangat.

tp interviewer dia sangat best. chinese and malay. both are nice. nice to meet them ;)

lepas nih balek kmb. bosan balik. keh3. tapi kerja menanti kat sana.

Friday, April 02, 2010

MIChO

Malaysia International Chemistry Olympiad (MIChO)

tak sangka aku dapat jadi peserta Olympiad Chemistry, selama nih jangan harap nak dapat tawaran. masa dulu-dulu, pernah join Olympiad Mathematics, tapi dah lama. lepas tuh tak dapat-dapat tawaran. benda yang sama antara dua-dua nih satu je, soalan melangkaui syllibus! So, mesti lah aku tak sempat nak baca, sedangkan syllibus sendiri pun terkontang-kanting, inikan syllibus degree.

tadi first2 ada lecture, dari Prof .... (chinese guy). lecture die interesting, die bersemangat walaupun tua. n rambut die sangat lawa, ada warna hitam dan putih, tapi tersusun rapi. haha. aku nih tgk rambut ke dengar talk ? yang bestnya, ada banyak benda yang aku tak berapa sure apa yang dia ajar. sebab banyak benda baru, tapi laju.

ada satu benda yang dia bagitau, kita sekarang nih budak SPM/STPM dua-dua tak bagus. sebab kita sebenarnya banyak tak tahu basic. sebab tuh bila ditanya, kita tak dapat jawab, tapi dalam hati kita tahu. bagi dia, kalau dalam hati tahu, tapi tak boleh nak luahkan, sama saja macam tak tahu and tak faham basic. and apa yang dia cakap semua betul.

after talk, kitorang ada ujian, essay. soalan senang je, tapi sebab tak tahu basic, maka tersipu-sipu dan senyum kambing masa tengah menjawab. ada tiga essay, setiap soalan 20 markah. soalan berbunyi begini :-

Explain, what you understand on :-
1)Chemistry Equilibrium
2)Chemistry Bonding
3)Intermolecular Forces

tengok, semua senang kan ? kecuali no 1. semua nih basic je. and sebab soalan no 1 aku tak tahu, so aku main hentam je, siap link kan economics terms (equilibrium) dengan chemistry, senonoh tak ? taapi aku puas hati dengan essay dia. :)

cuma Quiz, 20 objectives, dua jam! OMG susah gila. tak faham satu pun. dia kata kalau salah tolak satu markah, n kalau betul dapat markah, n markah dia untuk setiap soalan berbeza, so aku main jawab je semua soalan, hentam ah kan.. tak kesah dah kalau salah tolak markah, cuma mengharapkan luck je. sebab memang sangat susah, and dah takde harapan dah...

yang paling best, exam nih paling sempoi. boleh cakap2, boleh bawak beg, siap aku letak atas riba lagi, and examiner pon suka buat lawak! sengal2. tak pernah ad exam macam nih.

esok ada interview session. kitorang akan diberikan one topic, tapi esok. masa untuk prepare 20 minit je. so, aku harap dapat la topic yang faham. nak die bagi psal tanah ke, aku konfem tak leh jawab. aku akan just offer die untuk bagitahu more about myself. haha.

dah la english aku tak bagus, rasa macam bodoh gila sekarang nih. budak2 lain tadi macam hebat2 je, budak2 kmb pon kata ada banyak gak ah soalan diorg bole jwb. aku risau, risau bukan sebab apa, takut ah jadi yang paling last. n one thing, esok waktu interview mintak2 interviewer tak tanya pasal soalan Quiz m.c.q. risau aku. dah la banyak hentam.. ish2




Thursday, April 01, 2010

currently at University Malaya with new roomates

"reading music, listening chemistry"

nih yang aku tengah buat :)
hari nih first day, for the olympiad chemistry prog. about 20 of us from kmb, out of 53 participants yang akan compete untuk pergi Jepun for the international Olympiad. i'm not sure, macam mana aku boleh ada dekat sini, tapi aku try utk grab this oppurtinity. tp taklah mengharap untuk menang, since satu habuk pun tak baca lagi.